create joy

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I had begun writing a post about bagging internships which now lays saved as a draft, because today I wanted to write about something what got me out of the state of ennui I was in, for the past few weeks.

There have been days, even weeks where I have just stayed in my house and locked myself in my own head but when this passes,  I do some thing that brings me joy, there's this sense of hope almost, the one you get when you stay up late night and feel the energy to change everything- maybe your room, maybe the way you look, maybe try outfits - that sort of one, I can't quite explain what this feeling is, but we should all chase it.

I realized this very late, having been working from home most of the time, I close myself in my room most of the day and the moment I step out, there is a feeling of calmness and reassurance that there exists a world beyond the four walls you've trapped yourself in (metaphorically and literally).

I was someone who tagged along a friend even for groceries, but lately being alone feels good, to take any route when walking, to trust my own decisions (even if it's the type of cereal). There is a huge difference between being alone and being lonely and I'm still working my way through this one.


If someone saw my search history on Spotify they would be so confused but I have this "hype playlist" which has all the upbeat songs and when I feel a little bleh, this playlist puts me in at least 30% better mood.

Scribble, write, journal but do something. Whatever your channel of venting is, do it.

Sometimes it's difficult to push yourself, on those days, lean on a friendly shoulder. More often than not you will find the will just by being around your loved ones and talking to them.



I won't romanticize it, some days are grey, on those days, give in to your feelings, give up, stay in, binge those movies, eat those chips but when you feel that dismay internally, you know you've got to get it together.

Joy is not an emotion we should perpetually be chasing, because let's face it, it's not possible but it is possible to create joy, everyday. To live for oneself, as oneself.

That's all for now.


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